Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

2008-04-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

s-t-r-e-t-c-h and go forth!

i once was lost

now i'm found

it's a brand new day

life's been good and happy! i'm so thankful for all the lovely people around me. old and new. i've always been skeptical about people, and i admit i still do, but i can't deny genuine people do exist! people with genuine feelings, people who care for me and want the best for me. i want to be more genuine, loving, and more passionate about life! can't help thinkin about the past years i've led aimlessly without any purpose, time just whizzed past hardly doing anything constructive at all day in day out. it just made me feel so useless. gotta start running!! despite being still clueless about what i wanna do in the near future, i believe there'll be breakthrough!

umm.. it gets me thinking about this particular friendship, why do i sometimes feel that you don't want the best for me, and that you aren't feeling exactly happy for me when i'm doing well despite you saying so? why do i sometimes feel that you're trying to compete with me? i seriously loathe competition and a true friendship isn't about competitiveness ain't it. i really want the best for you and i hope you'll feel the same way for me too.

anyway, now i just need to be stretched for this one month!! sow first, wait patiently, and reap eventually :))

2008-04-07T01:21:00.010+08:00

come and rain down on me

rain down... rain down

won't you rain down on me?

my heart is calling out
for your embrace

<3

2008-02-18T09:33:00.002+08:00

minds are like parachutes; they only work when they're open

so, just what am i trying to prove? even if i were to prove myself right, what's the point? there's nothing i can do. moreover, what happened has already happened. it's the past. i can't turn back the clock, can i? stop mulling over the what if's. chin up and move forward.

they say, nothing is certain except that you know everything can change. but i know one thing is certain, that is, You won't disappoint me no matter how disappointed i am. don't lose hope! :):):):)

we do not need to be loved as much as we need to love others. it's more blessed to give than receive.

2008-02-14T03:41:00.004+08:00

nella mia preghiera

I said a prayer for you today

And know God must have heard.

I felt the answer in my heart

Although He spoke not a word.

I didn't ask for wealth or fame

I knew you would understand

I asked for priceless treasure rare

Of a far more lasting kind.

I prayed that He'd be near you

At the start of each new day,

To grant you health and blessings fair,

And loved ones to share your way.

I asked for happiness for you,

In all things great and small.

But it was for His loving care

I prayed the most of all.

have you ever thought of what's best to say, as in really damn hard, but nothing just came out of your mind?! but when you actually think about it, hey, why do i have to think so hard?

sometime ago, my friend said we just needa do what we think it's best. but there're some things we know it's not good for us, but we still do. indeed. another lightbulb moment.

arh, its been such a long time since i feel so lighthearted :) :)

2008-02-09T01:20:00.000+08:00

i feel like i just found out my favourite song was written about a sandwich.

One day, I brought my broken dreams to Him in the hope that He'd mend them. But instead of leaving them all in His hands, I meddled and tried to help with ways that were my own.

Finally I snatched them back impatiently. And I cried, "Why are You so slow?"

"My child," He said, "What could i do? You never did let go."

2008-02-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous

just when i faltered, i stumbled upon something so familiar yet so strange.. something that's still haunting me despite how much i wish i could wrap it up and throw it miles away out of my head. something i never thought i would ever see again, at least not in that warped manner!

the next thing i saw was jon's nick "Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous". why, just when i'm trying to convince myself to put down, it refused to leave me alone? shahid once said there's a purpose for everything happened. just what is it? really perplexed.

so many thoughts clouding my mind right now. i'm really clueless what kinda position to apply for. no idea if i should work in the banking & finance industry. shucks, this is awful!

2008-02-02T02:18:00.000+08:00

fill me with peace

Wish I had what I needed

to be on my own
Cuz I feel so defeated

and I'm feeling alone
And it all feels so helpless

and I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset

with nowhere to land

And all I see,

it could never make me happy
And all my sandcastles

spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

i wanna convince myself that i know i have You, and that's all i need, without any doubts. i'm sorry that i kept questioning about You when i told myself i should believe in You.

i know all the answers will eventually be revealed at the right time, but i dont know what i'm diving into. give me a sign please.

2008-01-24T09:42:00.000+08:00

i feel like i've drunk 10 espressos in a row!

i wish you love

it has really been a rollercoaster ride. but i'm glad everything turned out fine at the end of it, well i hope, if you really meant everything you've said. it's really a load off mind now that things were thrashed out. i feel so relieved now!

2008-01-05T00:40:00.000+08:00

yes i like it when you're shy

you know you're stunning
you're absolutely stunning
but you're always running
but i'll catch up to you

the way you keep your distance
is keepin my interest
so i'll keep it persistent so..

ohh..maybe someday, someway, somehow, sometime
we'll get together and we'll break it down
and i'll ask, "why gotta be so shy, gotta be that way?"
maybe, baby, oh, i like it that way
shy that way

you know i love you so shy, shy that way
baby baby it's okay how we're shy that way

though i may not know the right things to say
i'll get it out to you one day

2008-01-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

all i'm asking for is one last chance

you have given me two chances,
but i've taken them for granted.
i was such a fool for blowing them away.

all i'm asking of you now,
is to give me one last chance,
to open the door to your heart.

2008-01-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

"… Let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth" (1 John 3:18).

those three words,

are said too much,

they are not enough

-- Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol

2007 hasn't been much of a fufilling or wonderful year. i had lotsa emo periods especially at the last quarter, lotsa teary and lost moments. it's a year i wouldn't forget, for losing a loved one, for gaining someone dear.. all i know is it's really a blessing to be able to count my blessings, so i will learn to be contented with what has been given to me. to learn that for those which aren't given to me, they're prolly not meant to be or just not given to me yet.

i hope 2008 will be fulfilling and i will emerge as a better person inside and out, a happier and stronger person. it definitely spells a new beginning ahead. here, i just wanna wish everyone love, happiness, safety and good health (: cherish your loved ones!

happy birthday dad, i love you! i dont find myself saying that to you, but i love you.

2007-12-14T01:52:00.000+08:00

i've been dreaming of a true love's kiss!

A life goes by

Romantic dreams must die

So i bid mine goodbye

And never knew

So close was waiting

Waiting here with you

And now, forever, i know

All that i want is to hold you

So close

So close to reaching

That famous happy end

truly magical, totally adore it! (: even the guys like it! love the way how the fantasy and the real world crosses each other, the good songs and charming actors. patrick dempsey is so charismatic and amy adams simply gorgeous!

true love may exist, but what about happily-ever-after?

2007-12-10T11:41:00.001+08:00

how do i speak of the indescribable to You?

i will try to explain these feelings that are true

so lookin to the sky i will sing

and from my heart to You i bring

- All of the words, Kutless

sometimes, i think my tear glands are overly active, especially these days.

last night i dreamt of my uncle talking to my cousins and me as if he's still with us and i cried in my dream when he suddenly disppeared. my heart still cringes when i think of it. life is so fragile. we have always said to treasure our loved ones, but how often have we forgotten about it?

i kept reminding myself to smile, but i forgot how to smile when i saw you. it still felt awkward when we had nothing much to say to each other.

2007-12-10T10:22:00.000+08:00

A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself

i always find it hard to express thru a sms. when you try to cut it short so as to fit into the word limit, it loses its true meaning. just like i wish i can say everything to Abang at one go. describing every little minute details of emotions, be it happiness, anixety, disappointment or even anger. it gets pretty frustrating. i dont know why but i find myself expressing thru words in writing alot better than speaking out, dont you think so?

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.
"Pooh!" he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw.
"I just wanted to be sure of you."

you're Pooh and i'm Piglet :)

i really thank you for always being there. it feels really soothing to have someone there even when you dont have any advice to offer or have nothing to say to make me feel better. but you know what, there need not be any words coming from you at all. being able to feel your presence in the silence, that alone is more than enough. arh, that sounds like God. hahas. not to forget, you always make me laugh.

2007-11-08T04:02:00.000+08:00

that's when i love you

when you have to look away

when you don't have much to say

that's when i love you,

i love you,

just that way

to hear you stumble when you speak

or see you walk with two left feet

thats when i love you,

i love you endlessly

2007-11-02T14:45:00.000+08:00

you are..

you're like a pair of new shoes
that i have discovered by chance
kindling my curiousity
i thank God for this serendipity

you're like a pair of beautiful wedges
that i can't resist to take one more glance
enchanting me from deep within
it's an affection i can't win

you're like a pair of fine sneakers
a size bigger of subtle nuance
trudging each step with insecurity
it's just too hard to run into eternity

you're like a pair of sleek kitten heels
exquisite and displaying elegance
yet i can't travel far with the strain
for sores and blisters is all i gain

you're like a pair of lovely stilettos
that challenges and upsets my balance
now that i have revealed my fragility
i wish i could whizz off in anonymity

loves,
sharon

a random poem out of boredom (arh, this kinda rhyme aint it haa). well, i have heard from somewhere that a good pair of shoes bring to you to the most beautiful places.. i guess what really matters is whether it fits and feels comfortable. in due time, at the right instance, i will own it with certainty for it's just lacking affinity.

2007-10-28T01:02:00.001+08:00

grabbed back to sanity

i got a piece of paper

but it's empty

it's empty

2007-10-21T17:57:00.000+08:00

there'll be no more tears in heaven

in remembrance of

dearest uncle

departed on 11th October 2007

2007-10-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

hey stranger

i am here

and you are there

at separate ends.

there's nothing i can expect from you to begin with.

2007-10-02T17:09:00.000+08:00

the nicest things

All I know is that you're so nice,

You're the nicest thing I've seen.

I wish that we could give it a go,

See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,

I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.

I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile,

I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,

But you always wanna know what I was about.

I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,

I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,

'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.

Basically, I wish that you loved me,

I wish that you needed me,

I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break,

I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.

I wish that without me you couldn't eat,

I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

All I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen;

I wish that we could see if we could be something

gleeful days ahead :) even if it's gonna be shortlived

2007-10-02T16:57:00.000+08:00

happy belated 22nd children's day!! :)

damn, i missed school yeasterday. sore throat and flu -- what a great birthday gift uh! on a sidetrack first, my godsis was sooo beautiful on her wedding day!! had helluva fun photowhoring with my cousies!

anyway, last saturday began with a pleasant surprise and indulgence in AwfullyChocolate's AllChocolate at the void deck. here are some quirks from our first visit to the Escape after lunch. not to forget, thanks ah kam for the free tix!

at the starting point of go-kart,
kam: i don't wanna always come in last, please please don't overtake us!
the guy: i'll overtake once we're down the slope.
down the slope,
the guy: damn, this one no power!!
me: ackk, no kick!
someone behind trying to overtake,
the guy: hurhur i'm hogging the road. no way you gonna overtake me! hahaha..
finishing line,
ah kam: i'm finally first!! yay!!

waiting for the Inverter ride to start,
leng: i'm beginning to feel scared..
me: i said i dont wanna try already! can we get off?!!
kam: is this secure?!!
the guy: arhh.. i'm so scared.
after the ride
me: hey, maybe we can ride the Inverter again later!

going home
kam: maybe they should just close down all the rides and make the whole place go-kart circuit.
the guy: you can always take the wheels later!
me: wait, i must call my insurance agent first!
leng: me too!!

hahas. the day ended with japanese curry dinner at Curry-Favor @ Stamford House (i wanted to try it gadzillion years ago!) and some strolling.. thanks sweeties :)

2007-09-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

did you get my message?

uh oh, where did it go,

must have bypassed your phone,

and flown right outta the window.

ooh well, how can i tell?

shoulda called the operator

maybe she know the info

hopes just bring you more disappointment.

it could like feel so sweet yesterday,
but so bitter today.

it's just so silly.

2007-09-07T17:15:00.000+08:00

Not anyone can become a great artist, but a great artist can come from anywhere.

one third to the end of the year,
but back at the start again.
one last chance.

stay as you are,
wait for a good opportunity.
as long as you're patient enough to wait,
your chance will come.

choices only make me more indecisive,
yet i wouldnt want you to leave me with no choice!

God really should have made me an amoeba.
perhaps everything would have been simpler.

2007-08-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

A man's friendship with a woman needs attraction like a car engine needs a spark plug.

even with a magnifying glass, doubt you can read like this. haa! a click on it will do the trick ;)

without it, the friendship is doomed to stall somewhere around the "the friend you meet up for dinner once every couple of months" part.

it certainly applies to the romantic realm too ain't it?

2007-08-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

merrily on the go!!

AllChocolate from AwfullyChocolate.

it's so sinful!! collected the cake from Sembawang Hills, after which we ambushed ourselves at the AMK carpark to spring a surprise attack :P

Dinner at Buckaroo.

pretty good value for the huge American servings (comparable to BotakJones), but its location is kinda inaccessible if you don't have a car as it's off Sembawang Road. it's like you can swim across to Malaysia already haa.

Chilling out at Ritz-Carlton.

it's been so long since we got busy with photowhoring. aww.. if only we could check into one of the guest rooms and slumber away. oh, and we conclude that you need to have strong knees to work as a waiter there haha!

Changi Village.

finally the eventful day ended with a capture of Serendipity :)

BOO.. why do weekends pass in a blink eh?

2007-07-29T16:35:00.000+08:00

Maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. - Chris Gardner

uh yea, have the same sentimentals too.. but he got it eventually, albeit the hard way.

it suddenly gets me thinking that is it really so that when God shuts a window, He opens another?

You just need the right broom. - Hitch

i think i need exactly one right now.. to sweep you off your feet!

two good flicks worth watching!! anyway, caught Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix in the theatre.. was such a letdown. Transformers on the other hand was pretty good.

on a sidenote, i'm like so adapted to slacking again.. aye, the thought of having to start work SOON gets me feeling a whole lot more blue especially when there're senseless thoughts already racing through my mind.. but prolly good, gets my mind occupied and healthier lifestyle.

2007-07-29T12:20:00.000+08:00

the face i came to know is missing too

all i ever wanted was for you
to know that everything i do
i give my heart and soul

i'm getting sick of eating chicken wings! changi v nasi lemak again last night, had wings at wala on friday. the band at wala was great as usual!

also had the virgin experience of going to a concert.. not counting those at victoria concert hall or esplanade of cos haa. went to S.H.E some kinda concert thingy at Expo yesterday (for FREE of cos -LOL- thanks to kel) despite having listened little to chinese music and only a few of their songs. really couldnt phantom why those fans would queue up in the rain for their idols!

the vibe was pretty high, everybody's standing up but we sat our way though haa. all i could see was them on the big screen, no difference from catching them on the tube ain't it? but i must say the songs on their [PLAY] album are nice, and hebe looked really gorgeous sporting a short crop!! if only i could get that spunky look too.. hahaa..

2007-07-24T14:22:00.000+08:00

the biggest obstacle is yourself

aye, this says so much about me. most of the time, some things you just find it hard to speak up.. and sometimes it's quite a feat to muster up the courage.. anyway, temping at the bank had come to an end. sounded it off, finally. having a short break before the HR job commences in August. i dont know if it's right to say this is a blessing in disguise..

last night at changi village, didi forever cracking his lame jokes but always so funny haha!! i didnt get to see the dustbin at the carpark cos we didnt park at the usual one. i think it's prolly gone haha. ok now i'm lookin forward to the chicken wings at commonwealth.

2007-07-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Disaster

He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

2007-07-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

i try counting sheep, but there's one i always miss.

i can't read myself..

2007-07-04T23:09:00.000+08:00

please give me a sign

i'm really working my fingers to the bone.

2007-06-22T14:32:00.000+08:00

from a friend

sha ren, sha ren,
born on the day of children,
size as small as a pea,
but heart as big as the sea.

sha ren, sha ren,
ni bu yao pian ren,
don't you try to hide it,
that you like mr. rabbit!

-laughs- my friend is an indian muslim by the way. his random messages always puts a smile on my face. thanks abang! =)

2007-06-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

dreamy torpor

my savings will be exhausted soon if i continue spending at the current rate with no income.. and i just declined an attractive temp job offer. BOO.

i'm supposed to go to the zoo zoo zoo this sunday, love ya dearie, but it seems like we're going next weekend instead. the last time i went was like prolly more than a decade ago? aww, am i so old already?!

sometimes i just wish i'm more decisive.

when the sun shines after the clouds have blown away, the future is bright. even within dirt, lies a precious gem. what's yours, is assured to be yours. it may be difficult at first, but with proper applied skill, success follows.

just have a little patience.

2007-06-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

Don't need to be decieved,
to know a lie can be spoken.

Don't need a broken heart,
to know a heart can be broken.

i'm so utterly disapointed in you.. you know what, the hardest thing is to keep believing.

your heart just chose to close the door.

2007-06-09T02:38:00.000+08:00

How could an angel break my heart

Why didn't he catch my falling star

I wish i didn't wish so hard

Maybe i wished our love apart

oh boy, whenever i'm back at home, my mind strays wildly. going out everyday isn't a cure, it's only keeping my mind occupied temporarily. i'm losing faith and confidence in almost everything. its only about a week since exams ended but it feels like yonks ago..

2007-06-02T16:18:00.000+08:00

Makes me wonder

I still don't have the reason

And you don't have the time

And it really makes me wonder

If I ever gave a fuck about you

Give me something to believe in

Cause I don't believe in you anymore

Anymore

I wonder if it even makes a difference to try

Yeah

So this is goodbye

2007-06-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

jolly june's here!

30th May marked the beginning of liberation, say Yay!! y'know, one could get so uber depressed cooping up at home! but it's times like this you know who are your happy pills.

it's also ironical that i'm having less sleep now compared to exams period, and definitely not as sleepy. sleepy bugs were really active during cramming. haha. anyway, great shopping and chilling! get-togethers coming up!

2007-05-16T10:04:00.000+08:00

my thoughts consumed me.

after much struggle, i've finally decided on it. i don't know if i've made the right decision, but i doubt anyone could sway my determination already. even though it's still uncertainty looming ahead until september, i know i can make a great difference if it turned out to be what i want. as for now, could only hope for the best.

2007-05-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

you got me lookin' into blindfolds

Uncertainty. DAMN, THIS SUCKS.

gave up at the last half an hour. it's the first time, and i swear it's gonna be the last.

2007-05-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

crumbling away

its times like this i actually do some blogging. pre-exam period. don't ask me why.

i chopped off my shoulder-length hair, yes AGAIN. arghh. for the past two decades, i always can't get past that length!! when i saw the amount of hair on the floor, couldnt help feeling abit regretted, which i always do. so the cycle revolves without fail, i think i wanna keep it long again. haha.

2007-04-24T12:38:00.000+08:00

would it help if i turned on a sad song?

it's gonna hurt bad before it gets better.

sometimes i wish i've mutant's power. nothing seems to be in my way and i can hardly focus. everything is so slow-mo, so SLOW-MO.. yet time seems to slip away so fast. i want June to come but i don't want May to come aye..!

on a happier note, i can't wait to get my hands on those 12 lovelies from the recent online spree, whee!! IT'S TOTALLY WICKED! i heart sweetie for including me in the mad spree! =) neither did you read wrongly nor had it been a typo. yes we got 12 each, we're mad!

2007-04-06T10:58:00.000+08:00

もっと自信を持って。

i have been struggling not to wait for things to happen and make things happen, but morale is hitting new point low. i have never felt so crap before. its this vicious cycle again. of all things i even thought of a desperate measure, that fall-back plan, just what the hell am i thinking?!

certain things have to take a backseat right now.. and i know i will be strong enough to mend.

2007-03-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

你的爱很像泡沫，太轻或太重，都不在手中。
我的爱就像天空，太放或太收，你都只是风。

such a beautiful description dont you agree?

when a bubble gets too light, it floats away; when a bubble gets too heavy, it sinks and bursts. it's never in my hand.. never in my possession..

but i could only understand the first line.. can somebody enlighten me on the second one please? EDIT: oh well, now i've understood what the second line's tryin to imply, thanks xm!

whether i grab it too loosely or too tightly, there's nothing i can do cos you're wind.. you just pass me by..

2007-03-10T09:30:00.000+08:00

'A melody is like seeing someone for the first time. The physical attraction. But then, as you get to know the person, that's the lyrics. Their story. Who they are underneath. It's the combination of the 2 that makes it magical. '

Way Back Into Love

I’ve been living with a shadow, over head
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud, above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make through without a way back into love

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
there’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
and I’m open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping that you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the wayI feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
and if you’ll help me to start again
you know that I’ll be there for you in the end

2007-03-01T13:46:00.000+08:00

Listen

To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own

2007-01-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

in disarray.

the more i grasp after it, the more it eludes me.
so let be, wait for it to evolve slowly and naturally.

2007-01-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

you're stirring every chemical in me.

the vibe's pretty odd but its times like this, we had a good laugh.

2007-01-06T08:12:00.000+08:00

about a boy

you would never believe the four of us did such wacky things together. leaving that note and laughing our heads off in the car.

the sunrise this morning wasnt magnificent but it was beautiful. its really nice once in awhile to slow down your pace and feel the nature around you.

2006-12-29T21:12:00.000+08:00

livin' it up

so spoilt with all the late night supper and spins.

so spoilt that i dont even feel like going out at night without a car to fetch me to and fro. i'm such a free-rider muahaha..

hurhur supper later!~

2006-12-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

fate never fail to intrigue me.

gonna be last post of the year after such a long absence!!

x'mas was a blast! awesome peeps!! you'd be surprised that we're friends from different stages of the organiser's life -- friends from her primary school, secondary school, junior college and uni! i knew each of them from past different occasions though.. the thing is the gathering wasn't awkward at all, we enjoyed ourselves! had dinner at fish&co followed by countdown at paulaner brauhaus, supper at prata house, a lil strolling at sentosa siloso and card games at starbucks in town.

last tues we made some new friends while waiting for the cab - an indo boy from australia and his sisters. met up with him last thurs morning since it was his last day in singapore.

i saw an old friend and mr. curiousity in town too. haa. AND i formally became friends with xm!

"Life's like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get!"

2006-09-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

Mr. Curious, well i need some inspiration

i've said umpteen times but you know time really flies.. and i do hate it sometimes. perhaps all the time.

anyway, was the thai millitary coup untimely, or our planned bangkok trip untimely?

2006-08-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

in rememberance of

dearest granny

departed on 9th August 2006

2006-06-27T12:45:00.000+08:00

A forgotten yellow diary

weariness spoke for the absence of updates.

anyhow, finally got my final year schedule done a week ago! done in my way! although i've a 4-day week when school reopens in sept (as compared to the 3-day week for the past 2 academic years), i'm spared from spending my whole saturday in school!! theres nothing more dreadful than that!! hope there isnt gonna be any changes when sept comes pleaseee. *still praying*

the great singapore sales isnt that great afterall. theres hardly any discount for all the stuff that i've bought or gonna buy. bleh. bangkok, i'm cominggg if time permits!

2006-06-15T14:21:00.000+08:00

BOOOOOOOOOO.

its prolly the culmination of paranoia and stress finally taking its toll. that few days before the last paper, i had a bad dream of getting a big fat zero for my accounting paper. as if it wasn't bad enough, i had another dreaming that i only attempted barely half of the financial intermediation paper. how about that huh. i almost diagnose myself as being deliriously depressed.

as for now, i just hope everything will turn out unexpectedly fine when september comes. seriously, i have never felt this bad before.

what the heck, the bidding for the final year units started the day after my last paper. had no idea at all until i was told. anyhow, IT REALLY PISSED ME OFF BADLY THAT MY SCHEDULE IS SO BLARDY FARKED UP. just hope there'll be new slots. wtf.

2006-05-27T10:46:00.000+08:00

sour notes and the minor key.

i've fallen ill. the pills were and are still making me all drowsy. barely four days left, my puny brain please absorb the necessary! no point for any more grumblings, let me just SIGH...

2006-05-21T02:55:00.000+08:00

search for an elixir

now my head's sure to spin.

oh well, its been a a gadzillion years we met up with the boys. we finally did. i ate so much yesterday. bugis sketches hungry sized pasta + almost a quarter of a 500g choco cake (not joking, i was compelled to and i agreed it was torturous to eat choco cake for the first time!!) + rochor soya beancurd at geylang.

i've slathered up every bit of my fancl washing powder and the kose foaming wash that i wanted to buy is currently out of stock until tuesday!

2006-05-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

nothing short of good spirits

\(^-^)/

more than one third of the 3-week interpaper break has passed like holidays when i'm like in the midst of exams. celebrating friends birthday, retail therapies, french manicure, mothers day, catching up with good ole friends and more retail therapies shall sum it all up.

(_ _);

there ought to be a full stop to all these. aye, the good ole procrastination bug never fail to cling onto me. marketing and company notes are still lying in the ring-files untouched. untouched! UNTOUCHED!

for all these whiny exam posts, i know you feel like strangling me.

2006-05-11T02:52:00.000+08:00

soak up the ambience.

rocking chairs, comfy cushions and billowing drapes @ The Balcony. dinner was not very impressive but for that price its prolly good enough.

its sweetie's fifth birthday i was spending with her. is age becoming a taboo subject soon? haha.

2006-05-10T03:12:00.000+08:00

shocked. screwed. slaughtered.

totally unexpected and totally carelessness on my part. aye, what else can i do now but to moan?

2006-05-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

the first battle in barely three days' time.

aye, fulla hiccups revising financial accounting - struggling to draw up a balanced balance sheet, a fool-proof profit&loss statement, dont even mention a flawless cashflow statement!! management accounting section isnt better off either. *shrieks*

still quite a way indeed.

bless me.

2006-04-28T12:08:00.000+08:00

lecture notes make the best sleeping pills (-o-;)zZ

after much incorrigible, compulsive procrastination, i'm finally pushing myself. yes, despite it being a dozing-off-session with snail's progress.

i've been sleeping almost TWELVE hours most of the days the past few weeks. suspiciously a phenomenon of stress? haha. y'know, you cant help feeling worried yet laid back when exams are round the corner.

do you actually feel guilty for sleeping and not studying eh? most prolly when you are sleeping too much yea, BUT is even 2 or 3 hours too much?!?!! next, have anyone tried staying AWAKE to study for 3 WHOLE DAYS?!!? my friend's friend did. totally MADNESS!! this is so not human!

minus school, giving tuitions, precious sleep, time wasted on transportation and miscellaneous, i'm definitely left with less than 10 days from now. ackkk, there's financial intermediation lecture this evening!

2006-04-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

i just wanna be at my own pace, at my own time.

perhaps knowing how much others have studied makes one feel secured eh?

but please spare me, don't tell me there doesn't seem much time left *, and i don't really bother to ask how much one has studied and i don't wish to know cos it'll only make me paranoid.

up to date, i'm no way one-fifth done with accounting and company law -shucks- (the worst thing is i've yet highlighted the various sections of the blackstone's statues, i was just telling my friend that i'll get them done before i'm left with 2 weeks to accounting haa) and i'm contemplating to study the rest during the pretty long break. ARE YOU GONNA BELIEVE ME? i'm a last-minute mugger. take it or leave it. period.

* this may sound self-consoling, but i really think i still have some time! despite that the two heavy subjects marketing and company law are RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHER, i kinda <3 my exam schedule to the bits cos i've a 3-week break to focus on the former two & 2-week break on the last paper financial intermediaton.

2006-04-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

another day without any progress.

a sparrow flew into my house this afternoon. my mom thought it was a gigantic moth without her glasses on when i was screaming at it hahaha..

met up with eve for our seafood platter in town. the sharkie freeze was too much for just the two of us to gulp it down. we got so full and bloated as usual.

i dont know what's coming into me - firstly i knocked myself against the corner of the coffee table last night and then i got poked by the stupid prawns while cutting the fish today. bleh.

anyway, i got another ~h2o+ product hehe. 50bucks for just this small 30ml thing =\

2006-04-18T11:56:00.000+08:00

who's the culprit of a 3-hour traffic jam?

it was this huge tree which decided to fall entirely across the two-laned road at an untimely hour.

i was just less than a bus stop to school when all vehicles along the same direction came to a halt. after several minutes, the bus was still motionless. the sight of several motorbikes u-turning signalled that it's a dead end ahead so i knew i had to alight. did not expected there to be a fallen tree ahead until i witnessed it, and i immediately smsed rena to ask her to alight if she's just a few stops away. true enough, her bus was just two stops away lol.

when my lecture ended at about 3 hours later, the jam finally started to subside. all the empty buses which were stranded opposite in bee-line, were finally crawling away one after another. imagine 10 of the same number buses could be easily counted along the road! which was pretty much why there was hardly any sight of buses coming to the stop i was going home, except for those sardine-packed smrt buses strangely. rena and i intelligently crossed to the opposite, hopped onto a bus and took the train home instead. haha. if not, i reckon it would take ages for our buses to come since those buses opposite were just making their way to the terminal.

anyway, the driver who escaped unscathed when his car was like almost camoflaged among the branches and leaves of the fallen tree was so fortunate! my mom was fortunate too, a coconut tree fell just a few steps behind her during her childhood kampong days!!

on the way home,
rena: what's the cause of the fallen tree?
me: umm prolly struck by the lightning?
rena: nah, it's monday. monday blues. hahaha..
me: ...

2006-04-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

香港からのホットニュース！！

『BLACK NIGHT<ブラックナイト>』映画の中でkassy がある！トシエちゃん、見たいですか？ ^-^

あれ！あれ！ええと．．雑誌から、最近kassy があまりかっこいいではなくなることを読んだ．．「ごめん、これは下手な日本語でしょう。はははー」しかし、いつもkassy がすきだね！『白夜行』が見たい！(。・_・。)ノ

2006-04-13T11:11:00.000+08:00

guilty escape.

so i gave uol marketing revision lecture today a miss! cash down into the drain.. but it shall be condone with the fact that i stayed through out yesterday's lecture from 10:00~16:00 all ALONE eh? really thankful i found myself a lunch partner yesterday if not i would have run off earlier haha..

THERE'S STILL NO SIGN OF ANY COURIER YET!!!!

i've been waiting for the despatch of the recent developments in law 2006 from london! i don't wanna miss it like the other time and arrange another courier!! student portal said i should receive the package by 12th April 06 at the latest. bleh.

2006-04-13T11:08:00.000+08:00

sweet indulgence!

2006-04-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

Six-lane highway running up to my back door, but it won't take me where i want to be.

i hate this time of the year when i have all the local and uol revision lectures constantly reminding me HOW CLOSE THE MAJOR EXAM IS, and extra tuition trips to prepare my students for their midyear exams.

i forgot if i have mentioned that i have a new student (a friend of my old time student whom i've taught almost 3 years, whoa) some time ago, so i have two now. since both of them are taking O'levels this year, i don't intend to take off from tuition even when my first paper kinda crashed with theirs. i'm pretty responsible right haha!

exactly 30 days!
time management is all i need now!

*grabs my noto to attempt sakubun!*

2006-04-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

i could fit into those big vases at Polo Ralph Lauren at Suntec.

toshie-chan used to tell me so whenever we walked by the shop haha. it's forever etched in my memory. someday i gonna take photo with one of those vases! hahaha..

oh well, i had difficulty squeezing into this size XS dress i like ALOT! getting sweetie's help with the other one-quarter of the zip, i managed to fit in nicely but it's a lil' too tight. i certainly don't wanna risk the hems giving way while walking on the street haha.

ack, this hardly happened in all my retail therapies! 'xs' is teeny weeny indeed but at least i know it's the next best alternative when i can't fit into 's' yea. *sobs* anyhow, i had to buy something to feel better and i purchased the other design which they had size s =\

ummm, time to start settling down to a life of a recluse, shall make tomorrow the last day for retail therapy yah! ^^"

2006-04-04T19:16:00.000+08:00

the day began with a little muddle.

"hey i'm already on my way, gonna be abit late."

*message sent*

after half brisk-walking and half running, i arrived at the meeting place and found no sight of my friend.

*beepz*

"huh? i thought you said come down at 8:50?"

i was astounded.

"it's already 8:05 what.." i thought, looking at the watch.

the very next moment, i felt like strangling myself right there.

oh well, i was the one who arranged the time the evening before. i knew the lecture was gonna start at 10:00 and not the usual timing 9:00, didn't i? RAAHHHHHH!!!

2006-03-31T15:37:00.000+08:00

amid induced stress & inevitable waste of time (part II)

what a fatal oversight. i need to get at least FIVE second class uppers altogether this year and next year?!!??!!! i'm going insane soOn.

2006-03-31T00:55:00.000+08:00

someday, somewhere, by chance.

『がんばっていきまっしょい』を全部見てしまいました！ ω
錦戸亮が好きだ (o^‐^o)
ハハハ~

行きたい！行きたい！行きたい！
トシエーたん、夢のためにがんばっていきまっしょい！！しょい！☆

2006-03-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

why do i, when i'm lost, i can't seem to escape?

find the way
if you can't reach the sparkling sky with your hands
rely on the love that echoes within
and push ahead on this road till you find the light

find the way
when there are no words, and no wings to fly with
don't be thrown in chaos by the wind and lose
push ahead on this road, and you will certainly find the light..

you'll find the way

2006-03-28T15:54:00.000+08:00

loving this week, it seems like holidays =)

thousands of anti-thaksin protestors paralysed bangkok's shopping district last sunday. oh my, hopefully the tensions will be down by the time my holidays commence! hongkong will be the next best bet eh? -beams-

umm. why am i watching other new shows now when i still have four on hands untouched?

it seems like there's still alot of time left that i'm still idling now ^^"

why do people wanna 'publicise' that they finally own whatever which they themselves know very well that they do not?

1 month. let's wait till the countdown says it's so. -continues idling- muahaha..

2006-03-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

unattainable adoration.

panasonic foma p902i. lovely ain't it? -sniff-

another delectable cover and mini sd 1gb.

aye, import can't do the trick, if only i can use it here. its functions are gadzillion times better than vs7 in the local market which has a striking resemblance. boo.

2006-03-24T14:56:00.000+08:00

amid induced stress and inevitable waste of time.

2nd class honours upper seems planets away.

bare minimum is to attain 2nd class upper grade for:

~~TWO subjects this year and TWO next year/~~

~~THREE this year and ONE next year/~~

~~ONE this year and THREE next year/~~

~~worst, FOUR next year.~~

chances are slim, especially for qualitative papers.

how depressing is that.

2006-03-21T11:54:00.000+08:00

stepping near once again.

revision lectures commenced with two company law lectures conducted by london lecturer which burned my whole of last saturday and sunday off. totally zonked after that. but i finally had ikea meatballs and wings yesterday to satisfy my cravings!

2006-03-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

disgusting buggers!!!!!

2006-03-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

i know, i know.

what to do, whenever exams are approaching, i can't help feeling stressed about doing nothing, yet i don't do anything. so ironical.

hurhur, suprisingly i sat through the whole 3 hours for accounting paper on friday, scribbling balance sheet, profit & loss, cashflow statements.. when i barely had half of the knowledge in my head.

there's another paper on tuesday and i haven't touched a single thing at all can you believe it. really can't phantom why those muggers could just cram ALL day long. i desperately need to learn from them. if i can sit still and cram for half a day, that's quite an achievement haha. moreover, if i really become a mugger, everyone will feel it's so not me yah lol.

aye, the london revision workshops are commencing this coming weekend! my saturday and sunday gone..! -_-

2006-03-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

what an unruly behaviour.

oh my gawd, my cousin got PUNCHED by a china boy in school while doing prefect duties the other day. from what i heard, the story goes.. two boys were quarrelling and they threw plates on the ground (this sounds so comical haa). my cousin happened to spot the china boy's act and asked him to pick up that plate. unfortunately, he got punched right in the eye, and my cousin was compensated the medical fees as well as a new pair of glasses.

oh well, the broken glasses could have pierced my smart cousin's eye, his life could ruin just like that, is that china boy gonna compensate him with his own eyeball huh. tsk. to think these boys are in a famous boys' school, don't they have a brain to think of the consequences?

2006-03-03T02:42:00.000+08:00

1 Litre of Tears.

it depicts a real life story of a 15 year old girl Aya who suffers from an incurable disease, Spinocerebellar Degeneration, which causes her to gradually lose the ability to walk or speak. this has gotta do with the progressively disappearance of nerve cells necessary for body movements. it's basically about her coming to terms with the harsh reality and making the best out of every precious day till she is bed-ridden, could no longer pen her diary, and eventually passed away at the age of 25. indeed the society can be both warm and cold; it reflects family and friends being supportive of her as well as others casting harsh glances at her.

it's extremely touching (such that i sobbed so much ^^"), definitely with an awesome plot. tsk, i finished it at one go lol. definitely a good go for it!! will prolly post a clip of it the next time!

2006-03-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

yes! yes! yes! I DON'T SPEAK ENGLISH!

you wanna know how it's like when japanese (aiba and ohno) speak english? this spoof's so cute that i couldn't help but to reiterate my friend's postie hehe! enjoy!

2006-02-27T18:50:00.000+08:00

it couldn't be better.

I PASSED JLPT4!!

couldn't believe i have scraped through! to my pleasant surprise, i attained 335 out of 400 marks. here's a tabulation of my results:-

* writing-vocabulary 96/100
* listening 59/100 (so screwed up!)
* reading-grammar 180/200

the listening section, as i mentioned in the dec post, was totally screwed. i'm sooo happy that my earlier premonition about flunging did not come true. it's a good thing that they did not make it a point that you must attain a 60% for each and every section in order to pass, but just the overall. scared the hell out of me. phewww~

超最高だよ！！おとしの試験が頑張ります！ ^o^v

2006-02-27T13:58:00.000+08:00

indecisiveness is driving me BONKERS.

seriously i myself can't stand my own blardy indecisiveness. why can't i be more decisive huh and always caught up in weighing pros and cons. so yea i'm smacked in between enjoying my holidays before i start working for good (yes for the rest of my life) OR being deprived of my coming holidays for the sake of the internship (hopefully get selected to work in some financial institution to gain relevant experience).

if only it wasn't stated that the internship commences right after the last paper and last all the way till the last day of the holidays. not even a week or two spared ayez. AND why did i only gotta to know about this internship programme like on the last day of application?!? if i had known earlier, at least i'd have more time considering yea. aye, excuses, excuses..

oh well, like i'll be selected for sure..

2006-02-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

paradise kiss.

oh well, finished watching! i know i should be cramming. tsk. aye, what an unexpected twist to the ending.. don't really like it =( reality kicked in. despite that, thumbs up overall, especially when the drawings were so prettyyy.

so i heard that caroline was together with her first crush tokumori with george's blessings in the manga (which wasn't captured in the anime). at least not to some stranger haha. poor george, totally clueless about his ending..

2006-02-25T00:52:00.001+08:00

oh no, strapped.

i should stop visiting town before the burnt hole in my pocket get any overwhelmingly bigger.

2006-02-23T11:45:00.000+08:00

i like the way ulcer lotion makes my mouth numb.

my family doctor said i should sleep early. i know it's time to readjust my screwed bio clock again.

on a frustrating note, i forsee bad hair days ahead. yesterday was the only time i was extremely unsatisfied with the haircut at chapter2. should have just gone back to my old time stylist at bugis outlet. not only i was told i couldn't cut my hair short due to my curls and my ugly fringe which i thought i could diy much better, what griped me about the bad haircut is seeing how my hair is so freaking sparse now! i have had very little hair to begin with. bleh. i reckon this particular hairstylist had a fetish for thinning hair so much. grrr.. BUT my experience wasn't as bad as my friend, she wanted shoulder-length hair and ended up having ear-length hair. it's certainly the first time i saw her hair so short.

oh well, i've been spending money like running water. the worst thing is mock is just a week away. ayez.

2006-02-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

now i'm loving this dark chocolate to bits.

i'm so muchhh attracted to lam fung's weally cute character as ben in this hongkong tv serial, Survivor's Law!! i like the other lady lawyer too, the one whose hair is spunky short crop. lookin forward to seeing them becoming a couple in the later episodes haha, lovely! if you haven't watched it yet, it's showing on channel 8 now! this is certainly another of lam fung's show i'm diggin into right now hurhur.. it's like i very seldom chase every episodes of chinese dramas y'know haa.

for your information, lam fung is this dark chocolatey guy wearing the specs in the pic. i've always taken a fancy in most of his shows ever since his qing dynasty serial, Stepping Into The Past, where louis koo was in it too. both are dark chocolatey aint it? lol.

2006-02-04T02:05:00.000+08:00

But i could not cross the ocean of your grace..

Now I'm standing above you trying so hard
Not to tell you I love you
And all that I want in this world is you
If you'd only wake up
You'd know it was true

Oh baby I love you can be so hard to say
Especially when it's meant in this strong way

2006-02-01T18:48:00.000+08:00

life is what happens to you when you're making other plans.

i hate it whenever i'm going ahead beaming with much enthusiasm but i always end up tripping hard.

why can't it go the way i want it to be?

WHY?!

"大魔王!" quoted from NANA. must be it..

2006-02-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

merry chinese new year!

i had a yummilicious steamboat and lao yusheng with my parents.
i went to my uncle's place as usual and was stoning away with all my cousins.
i went to my granny's place too.
my granny is senile; she doesn't know who am i now.
i saw people whom i only see once a year.

guess cny is about meeting those relatives whom you hardly see, and yes nibbling alot of pineapple tarts. i love pineapple tarts.

2006-01-23T12:22:00.000+08:00

please excuse my fixation with geek.

geek is back alive and he is sooo cuteee..!! (haha. jail-tan, check it out!)

wheeeeeeeeee!

on a random thought, the friendly service at m.a.c isetan scotts was apparently better than the slipshod service at tangs. perhaps it's more crowded at tangs. anyway, it's the first time i witnessed STERILISATION of a lipstick for trying. it's so amazing! haha..

6 cases in exchange for a lippie. oh well, i've only 3 so far.

2006-01-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

SHOOT ME PLEASE.

yes i desperately need a tough smack right on my head. right through my thick skull. to think i've been watching vcds when i'm supposed to be scribbling my long overdued essays (okay that i gave up), and cramming for exams. grrr.. i can't do anything at home.. guess i need to find some studying partners uh? PRESSURIZE ME!!

i'm hopeless.

totally HOPELESS..

2006-01-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

pesticide is very much appreciated.

yuckksss! there was this group of working adults in class behaving like they're overgrown kids. there's a real kid (umm prolly at most lower sec?) who behaves more like an adult than them. on a sidetrack, that's like whoa, at her age she's taking intermediate. i feel so slow >_<>

so yea, i particularly don't very much like this gay who created big commotion whenever he was posed a question. y'know, it's almost the kind of gesture of covering your mouth and going 'oh no oh no' while the friends giggled loudly away. i certainly don't need such noise pollution when it's merely one simple question asked. forgive me if i'm a meanie here. i'm not discriminating gays but i'm discriminating this particular gay. haha. it's just too annoying. jail-tan, you will know the next time!

in stark contrast to the previous small and artic class, the present class is so much bigger and way too warm. seriously i would rather grind my teeth away than tolerating those noisy shit. aye.

pssssssssssssssst!

on a happier note, the sensei is not too bad! jail-tan, her teaching style includes basic sentence structures before going into the examples. this is something better hurhur, at least we won't be catching no balls.. however, she's not as kawaii haha!

2006-01-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

snipe the sloth!

these continuous rainy days have been faithfully feeding the sloth in me. what's going on with me nowadays? been feeling all sluggish and drop dead since first week of the year. after much hibernating (cooping up at home all these days, thanks to hari raya haji holiday which fell on my school day), i still hardly have any zest in doing anything at all, not even stepping out of the house. the rainy weather made itself a better excuse.

ackk, i have yet attempted my assignments or started cramming!! how great, it's only the second week of new year and i'm already working away from my specially crafted number one resolution.

oh yea, why did all the public holidays fall on tuesday? it's the only school day which i never fail to attend lectures; missing it means the higher chances i'll knowingly miss the rest, get it!

why am i still here at this time?

2006-01-02T13:49:00.000+08:00

merry new year!

it's been some time.. so this is gonna be a super longgg doodle, basically i had a helluva fun on some days ^^ bear with me while i track back please.

viola! firstly here comes my 2006 resolutions:
1) no more procrastination, study hard!
2) take JLPT 3! (though i don't think i could even pass 4 ^^")
3) save money, spend way less
4) love my mama, papa and godma even more
5) sleep early and exercise my stiff bones
6) gain some fats on my arms only (cos they look like sticks)
7) stop being a lazy bum
8) learn jamming again hehe!
9) go japan/ hongkong/ bangkok!
10) be less indecisive
11) be more independent
12) count my blessings and be a happy girl =)

joy's 21st birthday bbq

060101. my cousie held her 21st birthday party at east coast. went with my another cousie-godsis yan. it started drizzling on our way there and the next minute before we knew, it started pouring sooo heavily that the umbrella that we shared hardly covered us from rain smackings at all! we ended up drenched and had to seek the not so near shelter pathetically. my pair of red pumps were like two water reserves haha. dear joy did not have any contingency plan, so we went back to parkway again to get canvas sheet for sheltering the bbq pits. (where yan and i got a pair of slippers each haa) by the time we were back, the rain almost ceased. oh well..

new year eve

051231. had steamboat dinner with mz, kel, rena and alvin, after which we went to suntec kbox for countdown (without our dear mz; with dajie joining us). it's a pity we didn't went to the esplanade for the fireworks, little wonder why we were like the few ones walking to suntec when the whole world was walking in our opposite direction haha. after all the noisy singings, we went eng wah to catch "A Chinese Tall Story" which offered the most appropriate time slot (i'm really sorry, toshie, i caught it without you! i can watch it again if you've no one to watch it with you yea, gomen ne!) it's bascially a lame show, was pretty hilarious in the beginning but it got kinda boring in the midst of when it begun showing some "star wars like" scenes. that's when the rest started dozing off haa! here's a reminder, don't catch this flick when you're tired. oh well, the guys commented that it sucks, but i feel it's not that bad, for the sake of the worth looking characters haha.. hey, its ending mentioned something meaning "世界最遙遠的距離..是明知彼此相愛卻不能一起". after that we staggered around until we finally had our breakfast at ps mac. it was almost 8am when i got home.

not to forget, credits to dajie for paying part of our kbox spendings! ^^"

papa's birthday lunch

051230. went to hdb hub with mama and papa to settle some stuff and we had a sumptuous lunch at crystal jade, sort of an advance celebration for papa's birthday on new year day ^^

sunbasking

051228. at siloso beach with eve. it's the first time i applied sunplay spf 50+ to shun away from the sun! tiny freckles on my arms please go away! thanks to too much outdoor activities during secondary school days.. (/_\)

happy christmas!

051224. the bunch of us (kel, jac, alv, hx) was invited to rena's place for a mini x'mas party. the most ticklish part was the few minutes before countdown. rena lugged her big digital clock to the hall and asked us to get ready for countdown. but her clock showed already past midnight HAHA! so she set the time again and alarm lol. i should have snapped a pic of the clock haha..

this is a post party snap at about 6am. i was lying among the rest with pretendence while rena took the photo haha! (damei was sleeping on the most comfortable sofa) rena and i were the only ones left still being energetic LOL. both of us had our forfeit of some yucky mixture of irish cream+raspberry vodka+chivas+coke+sprite much earlier during the indian poker, so we had passed our sleepy states. dajie and damei were far too slow in reactions during heart attack haa! kel was lucky all the way till her one and only glass of 40% shot (not mixture), she was kinda knocked out. as for jac the sole lucky winner, she's purely tired..

while they were still snoring away, rena and i just had to entertain ourselves until they were fully awake when the sun rose for a long time haha. we crapped a lot during brunch, you know how crappy the two guys can go and woohoo home sweet home at about 1pm!

haha i'm like rushing through a bullet train..

2005-12-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

will one suffocate from dreams?

my ribs are tightened by obscure, corrosive dreams. i wanna live them badly..

"so what if you have dreams when everything around you just dashes your hopes..." -- quoted from jail. aye, indeed! it tugged at me rather emotionally you know..

[jail, your aoi haru postie is triggering me so much to drool over it, lend it to me someday along with the battle royale too k? hehe ^^"]

on a depressed note, the waves appear to be shortlived.. *heartwrenched* need to get them riding high again!!

oh, muackksss to geek! hahaha.. i reckon lotsa fun there.. *envious*

2005-12-18T20:21:00.000+08:00

i'm driven to NANA insanity.

this is totally wicked. としえちゃん、ほんとうにありがとう！！ナナが好きだね！i wish the flick was longer and more detailed so that i could drooled over it longer haha. all of the main characters were like literally brought out of the book alive!

i desire for more NANAs..

2005-12-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

a splash of colour VS whirly

ouch, so i burned a HUGE hole in the pocket. mom kept harping that they looked so flimpsy and weak that they will go flat in a few washes. -_-" aye, i hope they will stay strong for the next 2 months! they seem flatter now though.. it's just hallucination alright hmmpphh!!

who loves to pout? check out below ↓

let's get the rap going, yoyo ~

this reminds me of the gakku frog song:

蛙の夜回りガッコガッコゲッコピョーンピョン

ラッパ吹くラッパ吹くガッコゲッコピョン

それ吹けもっと吹けガッコゲッコピョン

ガッコガッコガーハピョンコピョンコピョン

ゲッコゲッコゲーハピョンコピョンコピョン

lastly, i just wanna say we love NANA~

2005-12-12T03:42:00.000+08:00

harry potter and the goblet of fire. wicked, i finally caught it on last wednesday after it has been screening for weeks!! this fourth one's certainly still a charm, at least to me. its special effects and this additional dark aura of suspense made it weally engaging. yea, it's a darker sequel but not scary, and i didn't see much of the chinese girl whom the media made a hoo-ha of..

costly retail therapy on saturday. imagine i bought 4 tops and 1 pair of shorts. then i was on the verge of splurging on a pair of shoes which i gotta heave a sigh of relief that i didn't haul it home in the end. ^^" oh yea, i finally got my tony parsons book - the family way - which is the 4th book in my parsons' collection hurhur.

i can't wait to wear a new hairstyle! also, that pair of sneakers is enticing me into bringing it home.

on an unrelated note, i saw an old friend..

jcs jappie results. it's one of the few times i dare to say i passed an exam with flying colours. haha. 246/250, not bad huh! hurhur.. but i reckon many fared as well. aye, if only i could do as well for jlpt (/_\)

oh yea, i skipped 2 lectures.. i wonder how many pathetic times i actually went for my fi! ackk, i'm still struggling to slap away inertia after gadzillion times i've said so.. grrr..

aye, i'm still not getting yawns..